Sheesh, it’s been a long time since I’ve ventured out here. Perhaps, in recovery… perhaps, in rest… I’ve been thinking in my down time about slowing down and simplifying. Voices from my past telling me, “You need to be doing more, need to be more productive.” Or, “What you are doing is not valuable. Need to be busy… too much free time means something is not right.”
As I listen… through my initial thoughts of feeling guilty for not doing more, I realize there is a freedom with not being stretched thin. If people are invested in too many things here and too many things there… yes, they are left with much to do and think about. Sometimes an overwhelming amount of things. Politics, blogging, activism, boozing, success… the list goes on.
To be singular (or at least minimal) in thought and purpose and to live there… fully… is that not enough to free one up from so much that is peripheral? In this way of being, do we not finally allow ourselves time to fully rest? I don’t have to feel guilty for not being busy. I don’t have to feel lacking for not being stretched thin. Freedom… I know what I have to do… what I am supposed to do, so that when the time comes, I might do it, do it well and I may know that no one else can do it as well as I will.
The question remains then: What is it that you, reader, are meant to do? What is peripheral and what is central.core?