The men’s group that I am a part of has recently renewed our desire to focus on spiritual disciplines as the focal point of our gathering. Our desire is to look long and hard at our lives and listen (in ourselves and each other) for the areas that we would like to grow… areas that could use a bit more breath of the life-giving spirit.
I have been thinking quite a bit about my tendency to drown out the thoughts that are happening in my head. Music, internet, reading, movies, a beer, working in the yard, splitting wood… the list goes on… and I am continually reminded that stillness is something that is lacking in my life. It bleeds over into my presence with others, also, as I often find it difficult to sit still, pay attention, and respond out of my presence with them. I figit, daydream, or wish i were somewhere else. This is so far from the offering I hope to give to people.
So my practice is to begin sitting, without moving, for given periods of time. I am going to try 15 minutes three or four days a week. No moving, no music, no reading… just me, the Holy Spirit, my prayer, and my breath. I am also working on not moving around when I am listening to others.