It’s time to come out of the hole. Start writing again, Nate. You have things to say.

Probably the thing that keeps me silent to a great degree these days is the overwhelming amount of thought that goes into trying to decide how “Nate” fits into the world… as Nate. To be myself, to be the man that I have been made to be… that is where I want to live from. But this just so happens to be very non-status quo… not easy to maintain with the pressure from an outside world wanting to mold me into another robot for success and achievement.

We are all supposed to be this way, that is, living out of our very center. I am amazed that it seems so easy for many. Life, for many, seems so cut and dry, so happy-go-lucky. I am amazed… and slightly jealous. It can’t be so simple for me. So I slow down. I have less to say.

Talk to me about life. Talk to me about soul, about depth. Talk to me about understanding and feeling. Politics, money, stuff, success, religion, formulas, or hypotheses… I’m not sure that I have much to say about that. And I’m not sure how to move forward in that regard, either. I’m not sure how to emerge.

There is a book coming out called, Why We’re Not Emergent: By Two Guys Who Should Be. I haven’t read it, and probably won’t… and after reading a few reviews, I realize I probably don’t agree with most of what they say. But it is a brave title, and it leaves me thinking about my own choices. Another book I am pretty excited about… and one with a title I like even more, is Doug Pagitt‘s new book: A Christianity Worth Believing: Hope-filled, Open-armed, Alive-and-well Faith for the Left Out, Left Behind, and Let Down in us All. This is one I think I’ll definitely be picking up.