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Dying well… one of the most important things you can do

This is a general summary of a talk I did at First Congregational Church in Oshkosh, WI on November 27th, 2016. It is part of a three part series on End of Life, Dying, and living into the seasons of Life.

We are going to be talking about dying and end of life. Please sit with that for a moment. What does it do to you? What feelings rise up in you as you consider the end of your life or the idea and reality of death?

There are a few things I do not know, a few things I do know, and a few things I have seen enough that I am very convinced of. What I do not know is what will happen after I die. I mean, really, how can I know this for certain?!? Yes, I guess there are stories of those who have died and come back. You can believe what you want to about them, but I’m not certain. What I do know is that death happens only once and it is as much a part of life as being born. It is literally woven into the fabric of the Earth. I also know that life itself is dependent on death. The very soil that feeds the plants that feed the animals and so on is made up of dead material. This gives me, as a Nature guy, significant meaning. My body is going to become compost one day and is going to give life to other living beings! This may not work for you. That’s ok. We each have our ways of making meaning of this experience, and that is what we are talking about.

The thing I am thoroughly convinced of is this: Over the course of our lives, we are putting together a story of what it is going to be like when it is our time. Both positive AND negative. Every experience we have affects how we will feel about our own death. So if we have loved ones who have died with pain and suffering or afraid and resentful, this is going into our consideration that this is what death will be like. If we have people we know who have died with grace, peace, and surrounded by those who they love, this will be added to our story. THIS is why how we go about our dying is perhaps THE most important thing in our entire lifespan that we can offer to those who come after us. This affects our community, our family, generations to come. Stories (the stories that future dying ones tell themselves) are told about us!

Stephen Jenkinson says that dying is never an individual event. Every death is a community event and it has ripples that extend farther than we can fathom. For generations to come and, depending on what you believe, from ancestors before. We get one chance to do it right… or I would say, well enough.

If you could put your experience into five words, how would you do that?

You’ll have to bear with me as I try to put these things in linear form. I am used to talking about these things with one person or a family and they come in response to their own story. Each idea comes with 45 minutes of dialog and our time is so limited here. So I am offering a few ideas and hoping some of them are helpful.

It used to be that people would die in the upstairs bedroom with family all around. It was more of a natural thing. But now it happens behind closed doors and the doctor comes out and tells the family that grandma has passed. So a lot of people don’t know what to expect and what might happen. The perspective you’ll get from a chaplain is much different perhaps than one you’d get from a doctor. I think we have to remember, and I tell patients this all the time, doctors are trained to heal. It is their mission to fix. I have seen there really is as much variety of feelings about end of life, and levels of comfortability, in doctors as there are in patients and families. You’d think that if a doctor is around death so often, they’d be more comfortable with it but this is not always true. But dying is not something to be fixed. I hear from medical staff, “So and so is depressed. She wants to die. Call the chaplain and get her some antidepressants.” But so often this is someone who is 95 years old and is all alone! I tell her she has every good reason to want to die. This is ok. Sometimes our spirits and our minds are ready to go but the body is hanging on.

Some people say we should live until we are dead. They don’t want to know about their dying. So they want to go out in their sleep or end their life prematurely. Stephen Jenkinson says it’s not the being dead they are afraid of but the dying. “How connected is someone to their life when they have to be told they are dying,” he says. I have said it before and will say it many times, dying happens to all health, mature, and connected to the Earth beings. It is a physical AND a spiritual experience and the more connected we are to the NATURAL way of things, the more we will be prepared for our own death. But that is the topic for the next talk.

Readiness in dying

In my work in the hospital, dying is such a common theme. Something about being in the hospital, whether one has a terminal illness or not, brings about questions of one’s mortality and readiness to die. It really is amazing that something that people think about so often, or resist with such stubbornness is such an avoided subject by many medical professionals. I have been in so many conversations with medical teams, families, and patients talking about end of life, comfort care, and palliative care where the words “death” and “dying” are never mentioned. Why the awkwardness, why the fear? I think there is definitely something going with the doctors and nurses that I will address in other posts, but I would start with what I have been offering patients and family members these days.

I think there are three areas people become ready to go about their dying: their mind, their heart, and their body. Often times, especially when someone is younger and dying of cancer, their body might be saying, “It’s time,” but in their heart and mind, thinking and emotionally, they are far from ready. They have things to do, kids and grand kids to spend more time with, fears of the unknown that they hold on to. This so often makes for a lot of suffering. They pursue extreme treatment, their family members get alongside their efforts for more time, and doctors very readily do everything can to keep someone alive. But their body is saying it’s time.

The other, and perhaps less common situation, is when someone’s body is strong and in their heart and mind they really want to die. I see this with women and men in their 90’s who have no one left. Their parents died half a century ago, their spouses have died, some of their children have died, and all their friends have died. They ask me to pray that they would die soon. And yet they keep on living. I think this is getting to be more and more common with so many life-extending practices that we have now. This is a different kind of suffering, and I see doctors and nurses responding often with, “This patient is depressed.” I often remind patients (and staff) that wanting to die is not necessarily being “depressed.” It is not always “giving up.” Assuming this desire as such, minimizes the experience.

So ideally, our heart, mind, and body would be in sync when it comes to our dying time. How do we as those who may or may not be dying get to this place? Stephen Jenkinson writes that someone must be very out of touch with their life if they have to be told that they are dying. If we are paying attention and unafraid, we will know. The body has a wisdom of its own and knows when it has had enough. We would also do well to begin contemplating our dying and preparing for it as soon as possible. Why not now? I will tell patients it’s never too early to begin thinking about how we want our dying time to be. If only we can include our loved ones in this conversation, wondering and dreaming with them, recognizing that it is a part of life, not a bad thing. And one of the greatest gifts we can offer our children and grand children is a gracious and honest look at death so they have something to hold on to when it is their turn. This is a sacred thing to pass on. It is legacy. It is holy. And in this act we will be remembered.