I was in class last week, and such a transformational time it was… however, returning home to family life, working, caretaking the land, cleaning the house, and still trying to maintain a semblance of my deep friendship with the divine has proven to be a whirlwind. My professor said something that struck me as I was in one of five days of 9 hours of learning…
Speaking of what she says to her husband… “You do your ‘to do’ list and I do everything that needs to be done.”
I realize that this is so true. My life wouldn’t be the same if Kat wasn’t in it. This brings me to playing “catch-up.”
I’ve been thinking a lot these last few weeks about my writing, my spiritual journey, my sense of connection with God, Kat and how hard she pursues her spiritual life, my ability to focus, and so much. It seems like if I ever tried to “catch up” I would never be able to do so. I think its easy to think of a time in our life where our connection was so strong, where our spiritual life was rich, and then try to recreate it… to live it again. It’s not nearly so easy to be present to right now, and invite God into THIS time, THIS place. Each day, each moment is the time for encountering spirit as it is and as we are.
And then there is my beloved wife. How could I ever seek and learn and read and reflect as much as she does. She is “on” all the time from when she wakes up till long after I crash. Can I really compare my intermittent efforts to personal growth to her marathon? I think not. We are different, she and I. And yet we meet and we learn from each other. She honors my journey and I honor hers, not because we are the same, but because we balance each other.
In it all is love. Presence. Grace. Humility. God.