Where even to begin
spin thoughts, feelings, emotions
Twisting my heart mind spirit from my head
through my heart
into my stomach and end
in that knot in the middle of my back.
Ok, yah… the ache, stiff knot…
it shows up when i’m stressed
Burned out, upset, and tired.
Or a relationship ended.
The hopes for future, the plans, the ideas,
Left in a heap of question marks…
or unfinished sentences.
Where to go now, what to do, who to talk to,
how to go on.
This hundred pounds i’m carrying on my shoulders
Hard to keep my head up
It feels like i sat up all night in the rain.
Wishing for i don’t know what…
Waiting for something to happen…
Cold, muffled, alone, beat down.
I don’t know…
Don’t turn your back
At least show up…
I’m just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh lord, will i always be misunderstood?