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Sigh… of relief

Breathing a sigh of relief… I’m on through June. Amazing!!

I should add to this saying that the Wild Goose continues to push on forward… shaking the ground and turning our worlds upside down. (I saw this shaking in my minds eye today… and am only beginning to know what it really looks like)

This decision by Session is not only affirming and powerful, but it is inspiring for more movement, more communication, and further growth. More and more are people beginning to see the potential for the future and the impact this might have on our church as a whole. Keep those conversations coming. Face to face we will dream together. Life on life we will transform together.

And now, tomorrow, Wednesday, off to the Midwest. A joyous day of travel and adventure!

Breathe, Nate, Breathe

Tonight is the night… they decide whether I stay or whether I go… The group that is there to be led by the Spirit in making decisions for the community… will they hear the same spirit that so many of us hear?

2008, you hang in balance on this night. One way and I will sigh in relief, rejoicing in a year of partnership and promise. The other way, and I sigh a sigh of “Oh crap, oh crap, oh crap…” Time to get creative and find another way to keep doing what God has made me to do.

I have done as much as I am going to be able to do. I have communicated as clearly as I could have. Now I sit and wait.

Trying to just breathe. Trying to keep that breath coming. The candles burn in threes. Incense. Sigur Ros, Celtic, sacred choral… loud. All saying, “Breathe, Nate, breathe… let this thing happen.”

Dreaming dreams of future… conversations, relationships, life on life… tales to be told, music to be played, lives to be changed… I am a part of it.

Connecting the connections

I had a conversation with a woman at the bank today, leaving me feeling like we are doing the right thing with this community growth. I am amazed that this particular teller is so good at remembering conversations that we have had over the last few months. I have told her about this new community that we are seeking to grow and mentioned our gathering on Sunday nights. She warmly and politely told me in a past conversation that church is not something that she is particularly interested in. But she wished me well. So today, she asked how things were going.

Very well, I told her. Connections were happening and we are beginning to see what this community might be about. I told her it is difficult to think of it as church because it is so different than how I, and many others, have seen church in the past. It is so decentralized and not so focused on getting people in the door. She mentioned that she had heard about some other new churches that were starting up and seemed to have some good advertising. I mentioned my friendship with those pastors but made the distinction that we really are doing something quite different.

We don’t want to get anyone anywhere. Our hope is to meet people where they are at and connect with them through relationships, groups, and other means. Our Sunday gathering is really for those who feel a desire to study the Bible, pray, and go deeper. We hope to join people with what they are already doing. In this sense, we can be connected all over the place and not specifically with one place.

It really looks like this:

network-set.jpgI guess in all actuality it still looks kind of different than that… as perhaps there is no real center that we intend to gravitate people towards. There is the Spirit running through things… the Spirit of God… and I would affirm that God is doing things in many different places as the kingdom is realized on this Earth. It is our hope to find where that is and add fertilizer to that growth. We want to meet people where they are at and give them the opportunity and option to go as deep as they want to go.

If you have heard of the relational set (or some would say “fuzzy” set) – versus the closed or bounded sets – this will be familiar to you. I feel as though what we are doing is epitomizing the relational set.

I didn’t tell my particular bank teller about these sets, or get nearly as into the details as I have here, but as I told her, there was something in her eyes that said, “This is different.” We parted with her confirmation that she indeed would be thinking about this different way of engaging with people. A connection made.

Relational Influence – being missional in Bend

This is something I put together for the church publication. Not the final edit… but it sums up what I am thinking about a lot of things.

My thoughts regarding my first writing for this publication center on the purpose I believe God has laid on my life for this time… and perhaps for the rest of my life even. It has been a process of letting go really… something that would not seem a logical progression as I spend an increasing amount of time in central Oregon. Shouldn’t we be growing and developing more structure and seeing more people and having more commitment and developing more leaders? This, to me, seems more like carrying more weight not less. So when I say I have been letting go, it feels like there is less structure, less people, and not the growth that I want much too desperately to have.

And yet, influence happens. Missional (the intentional “being out there… looking out there”) happens. And it is something that I have to let go of. I have to let go into the trusting, faithful, day-to-day reliance on God to use me in the face-to-face encounters of every day. This idea of influence is something that we as a Sunday night community have been praying about constantly and encouraging each other to see. Continue reading